It's been a very long time since I updated here and I've just spent a long time deleting things.
Let's face facts here...
During my gap year I was a horrible fucking irritating, digusting person.
"i miss him"
"i like him"
"oh my life"
SHUT THE FUCK UP!
I was severely depressed and totally dependent on the meaningless encounters I had with people who really just made everything worse than it was.
I know what it means to love and be loved, I know what it actually means to be happy and content and I have to say I was a massive Twat.
I always told myself I wouldn't delete old posts because they showed my state of mind, but tbh I don't want reminding of that time anymore. I lived it once, and I will never live like that again. I will never let myself get that unhappy again.
I cannot erase the past, but i can feel ashamed and disgusted that I was ever brought that low without getting the help I should have. And now I'm a better and stronger person for it all, I can erase that year's reminders and I can finally starts afresh and move forward.